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I Am Not Ok

by Merlot Embargo

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Imagine your partner being out there killing it, while you’re fighting to stay afloat emotionally and keep your inner despair at bay. They come home from their high-powered day, and naively ask how your day was. That feeling is the inspiration behind I Am Not Ok.

It’s a song about depression, coupled with the ever-present comparison to other people. The end sort of gets into a “help me out of this” moment, but it’s mostly a reflection on living with the struggle. Like many Merlot Embargo songs, there is a dichotomy between the happier-sounding music and the somber lyrical content.

lyrics

La la la la la la
La la la la la la

You ask me how my day was
And all that I could say was, “I am not ok.”

I can’t see through the darkness
I forgot what happiness felt like

I compared myself to you
I know that’s not what I’m supposed to do
It’s all wrong

You ask me how my day was
And all that I could say was, “I am not ok.”

Help me get through the darkness
Remind me what happiness feels like
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh…

I compared myself to you
I know it’s not what I’m supposed to do
I compared myself to you
I know it’s not what I’m supposed to do
It’s all wrong
I’m all wrong
It’s all wrong
I’m all wrong

Don’t try to say you didn’t warn me
And compliments they bore me
Just say that I’m ok
Just say that I’m ok
Just say that I’m ok
Just say that I’m ok

Oh oh oh oh oh…

I..I..I compared myself to you
I know thatt’s not what I’m supposed to do
I compared myself to you
I know it’s not what I’m supposed to do

La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la

credits

released September 29, 2023
Scarlet: Vocals
Geoff: Vocals, Guitars, Programming, Percussion
David: Piano, Synths, Programming
Jeremy: Bass
Marko: Drums

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Merlot Embargo Los Angeles, California

Merlot Embargo is a collective of human beings from Los Angeles who use guitars, voices, glockenspiels, fiddles, drum kits, horns, pianos, and bits of junk to create anthems for 21st century ailments. Though Merlot Embargo exists in a modern age of tweets, synth pop and Keurig coffee machines, they seek to create music that is both classic and current. ... more

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